Can I be honest? It is getting harder and harder to trust people lately. I mean there was a thought in my mind that he only took me out because he wanted to tell all his friends how easy it was to get me to kiss him. But I thought maybe I was just over thinking things. I mean he isn't that kind of guy right? Then why did he go out searching for one of my best friends and kiss her? I guess I wasn't worth it. I wasn't worth anything to him. And the sad thing? I have always kind of liked him. I thought we had a good time. Well I did anyway. But whatever. If it is meant to be, it will happen. He is pretty amazing though. It all just keeps getting harder. It finally hit me today that I graduated. Nothing is going to be certain anymore. Nothing is safe. High school was so safe. Now I have the real world to get into. And quite frankly, I'm scared. No terrified. So many of my friends are leaving and I feel so lost. Everything is happening so fast. I constantly feel like I have to cry. I am an emotional mess. My grandma gave me a poem about me today and I started crying and I couldn't stop. ughh.
On a lighter note things were going really well. I know it has been a while since I really updated. Where did I leave off. Well Prom was absolutely fantastic! I was the prom queen :D yay! and the people I was with made the evening so amazing. Gahh I had a wonderful time. I also made the cover of the school paper because of it and they picked an awful picture haha. But I don't care. What else? Bay and Dina did a great job during powder puff haha. I wish I could have played. Also! The thespain award show happened in between the dry spell of me not updating. That was such a great night. I got to go to BJ's with my greatest friend. I also won Best Supporting Actress, Best Senior, Best Actress, and Best Thespian. Overall I think my hard work payed off. Then after the show we played tag at Royal Oak. Jacqui, Tyler, Jessica, Greg, Chris, Michelle and myself. Tyler is so fast. It is ridiculous. Lately I have been having the time of my life (: Besides the whole boy set back. But summer is here and I am going to enjoy every second of it. Hopefully I can find a job haha. Wish me luck. I'm going to go watch a movie<3>
Sincerly,
Em[ily]
