So much has happened.

I don't even know where to begin. Geeee, well so far I am loving college. For the most part anyway. My classes are so easy right now and that gets a little frustrating but it is nice to not have so much going on for once. It gets lonely here but I have great roommates to keep me company. There is so much boy drama... And quite frankly, I am not interested in finding a boy right now. I mean sure it would be nice to have someone be particularly interested in me and someone who I can hang out with in the evenings. But so far, there is only one of those here and of course he is interested in my roommate. Story of my life right? Hahaha, half the people here don't even know who I am. It is always "Oh look! It is Ace and 'whats her face'" Hearing that gets old after awhile. Sorry I am not athletic and as good looking in your opinion as she is. That doesn't mean you need to be rude. I have been feeling a little off lately and I feel like I constantly need to be reminded that I am worth more than the crap that is being presented to me. But this shall pass hopefully. Oh, but I do have guys here that seem interested in me. But I definitely don't feel the same way. It always seems to happen like that. I don't know, for once I would like it to go my way. But it's alright. That is the last thing on my mind right now.

I had my Math mid term today. Well the first one anyway and it was SO EASY!! Oh my goodness. I finished in 20 minutes and got out of class an hour early. I checked my work for 10 minutes and still finished before everyone... Apparently people took the whole hour and forty minutes to take the test. The funny thing is, it was only 6 problems and they were IDENTICAL to the study guide. OH! And we got to use a page of notes. Like I said, my classes are so easy haha.

I have another essay due in two weeks. Hopefully this one will be as good as my last one. (: I have to pick an image and write about with the artist is saying to their audience. It should be easy since every time I go to a museum and look at the paintings I make up a story about what is going on. Last time at the Ghetty, my mom and I made it into a game and we couldn't stop laughing. So I need to find an image this weekend to bring in on Monday.

I'm going to see Chicago this weekend with the bestie and I am so excited to get all dolled up! And I love that show so I hope Citrus does a good job. I was SO CLOSE to seeing The Sounds tonight with Jasper but it turns out the person who said he couldn't go ended up going. I was a little upset because I bet that would have been such an amazing show. Oh well. Maybe next time (:

Hmmm, what else? ... I am absolutely obsessed with lastfm.com I got one today to see what it was and I LOVE IT!! Hahaha. I am also obsessed with The Arctic Monkeys, Hey Monday and The Scene Aesthetic. Random right? Well so am I so get over it.

I went to the guys soccer game tonight and oh man! Those boys are SO GOOD. I'm talking amazingly talented. The game was so intense. and so much fun. But this is enough randomness for the night I'll leave with this<3

I'll write more tomorrow and definitely keep this updated. I have been lacking so bad lately. Again because I have been feeling off and down. But I have a new outlook so things should seem better.

OH and I love fall. This is my favorite time of year without a doubt. Good night!

<3em[ily]

"Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it we go nowhere."
_Carl Sagan

"I was just using her to get to you.

You don't think she cares right?" UMM ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!

Okay hold up. Let me start by saying this is going to be a long tedious blog about me doing a lot of complaining. So if you don't like that, then just don't bother reading.

Hmm, so last night my roommate Ace was supposed to go on a date with this guy Milo. He has been trying so hard to get with her and saying that he is different than the other guys and blah blah blah. He even told me that and told me how much he liked me. Anyway, so he comes over with his friend Gabe. Let's meet Gabe shall we. So he is from New York and lives in the dorm two doors down. Him and Milo come over all the time to visit. Well Gabe told Ace that he was totally into me and he thought I was cute and different and blah blah blah... But that I was to good for him. First of all. WHAT THE HELL? I'm not to good for anyone. No one is "too good" for any one. But whatever. So he ends up coming over with Milo and they asked if Ace was ready. Well of course she wasn't because I was finishing her hair. And Gabe said, "Why aren't you ready? We are going on a date too" So I went and changed. Well we went over to their place and they made us pasta for dinner. It was delicious! And we were all having a great time. Well they ended up leaving pretty soon after dinner because they had to meet up with some friends who were visiting. So Ace and I went to their place again to visit with their roommate Roy. He is such a sweetheart. Well we find out that the night before Milo had sex with some other girl and has been playing Ace. The Gabe comes back and goes on a walk to talk with Ace. She comes back and tells me that he said to her that he really likes her and was just using me to get closer to her. Then he asks her if that would bother me. WHOULD THAT BOTHER ME? Umm, I don't know. Being used usually doesn't matter right? Ughhh. This just proves my theory that most guys are all the same and it takes a lot to find a decent guy. I mean I didn't have a thing for Gabe, I never let my guard down thank goodness. It is just the fact of the whole situation. But I am definitely the DUFF (Dumb ugly fat friend) between Ace and I. All the guys LOVE her and I mean I wouldn't blame them. She is absolutely beautiful and so amazing. But I thought college would be different. That guys would start to notice me. But I guess not. Oh well. I am here to learn right? And that is what I am going to have to focus on.

But college is great. My classes are so easy for right now. And I have made some great friends, and had some amazing nights (: Haha. But we will see how the rest of the quarter goes. Money is becoming to be such a stressful issue. I mean more os that before. I got my housing bill and almost had a heart attack. And apparently I can't get a job on campus because I don't qualify for work study... I don't have a car so I can't get a job off campus either. Uggggggghhhhhh ): Hahaha. But I'm goign to go talk ot financial aid on Monday hopefully.

But I'm outies because David McMeekin is coming over soon to visit me! Yeeeee <3>Okay byee!

em[bem]<3

Tomorrow is my first day of college. I am kind of scared!! Hahaha But I only have one class in the morning so I'll be bored the rest of the day. But I do have some errands to run so I'll do those then. I'm still loving my dorm. I went out with Ace, my suite mate, last night and we had a blast (:

Granted I got ditched cuz I wouldn't put out but it happens. We are still waiting for out fourth suite mate so we will see who it is soon hopefully!

Now I'm watching the wonderful Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany's.<3

I'll blog more tomorrow. Big day! Haha. Byee

em[ily]<3>

Welcome to my life

So I just recently moved into my dorm at Cal State LA. This past weekend actually. So Let me take you on a little tour. (:

This is my patio and to the right is how you get into the place. It's really pretty and I had dinner on the patio last night with Jessica. (:

This is the living room. The furniture looks uncomfortable and that is because it is (: Haha. Ariel, one of my suite mates, and I decided we were going to get rid of the chairs and put bean bags instead (: But we aren't sure yet.

This is the dining room. Those chairs are a little bit more comfortable. (:

This is my portion of the fridge (: I got me some silk, diet coke, potato salad, salsa, turkey, cream cheese, velveeta cheese, strawberry jelly, butter, a chicken alfredo dinner, some strawberries, and orange juice.

This is my cabinet and I have one more too but currently there is just my magic bullet in there. I have three shelves with all my kitchen stuff and dry foods (:

This is the kitchen. It is pretty big and has everything. It even has a microwave to the right. and a lot of cabinets (:

The left side of my closet.

and the right. I brought a ton of clothes. I almost think I brought too much but then again I am living here so it might be the perfect amount (: and the closets are very room.

My bed! It wasn't very comfortable until I put my foam mattress pad on it. Now I sleep like a baby. And yes, I am aware that I have a lot of pink going on. They don't sell yellow dorm room stuff. Haha.

This is my desk. I'm assuming that I will be spending most of my time here haha (: There are a lot of drawers and currently it is very organized.

and again (:

I love where I am living. I have met so may fun people and already got invited to events. It is fantastic. I am excited for the year. But as of now, I am so bored. We are still waiting for the fourth girl to move in.

My roommate is really quiet and I don't think she likes me very much. Any time I invite her to come with me she says no thanks and stays in the dorm. And when I try to talk to her she doesn't say much. Maybe she is just shy or homesick. I can't blame her. But she is really nice and I am glad she is my roommate. (:

Then there is Ariel. She is from Glendora so she knows a lot of my friends. She lives in the bedroom across the way and we get along very well. There is never a dull moment. But she isn't staying the night here until Tuesday night. She is still moving everything in and going back and forth so I haven't seen her much.

So right now I am in my dorm all alone till about 3:30 because my roommate is at a meeting. So I am very bored haha. Later today I think I might go pick up my books and then tell Bob about our broken fridge. There is a crack in the middle of the bottom shelf so we can't put anything on it.

Well I'm off (:

<3em[ily]

You know what is really strange? I had the most amazing dream about him this morning. But whenever I have a dream about him, I am just grateful that he used to be in my life and then forget that the dream ever happened. I take it for what it is, a good dream. It seems to have been working for me. Until tonight. Of course, guess who texts me? He does. He just walks right back into my life after leaving for close to a year. I know that is not that long for someone to be gone but regardless. I fell for him, hard. And he left. And everything was going fine. But now he is back. I want to just push him away so badly, but I have missed him like crazy. This is bad. I know exactly what I am getting myself into. Heartbreak again. But I don't care. 5 minutes of happiness and just spending time with him is worth hurting for 5 months. I know it is stupid but he was such an amazing friend and I hate how everything ended. I hope this changes for the better. For now, I sit here waiting for him to realize how happy he really makes me. This whole thing is stupid. Sometimes I really do wish I was a girlbot. Then I wouldn't have to feel this way, I could just go about my business. Well, I guess this is what growing up is. And quite frankly, I don't want to grow up. Things are so much easier now. Growing up just seems scary. Yet, we all have to go through it. For me, I will just take whatever life throws at me and learn from it all.

Side note: I wanna be in a band and just be able to sing all the time. That seems like it would be wonderful.

Okay well I'm tired and I need to get up early to go running before it gets hot!
Good night. And sorry for the blabbering.

Until next time,
em[ily]

It's early.

And I am definitely still on my summer break. It is so weird that almost everyone I know has started school or has been in school for a while now. But I move in 9 days. So that is pretty exciting!

I went for a nice little run today with my ipod and puppy. Now he is sleeping at my feet. Looks like I really wore him out haha. (: It was such a pretty morning. But my shoes are still not fully broken into yet. So my feet started to hurt towards the end.

Gahh, aren't they just so sexy? I mean the whole band is so incredibly good looking. I don't understand. I saw them on Tuesday night. My best friend and I went to the taping of Jimmy Kimmel Live just so we could watch them promote their new CD Love Drunk, which is absolutely amazing by the way. They are just so good live. Even their sound check was wonderful. Jessica and I were right up front. And I know I may just be acting like a crazed Boys Like Girls Fan right now but I swear to you, Martin sang right to me when they were playing Hero/Heroine and The Great Escape. We definitely had a moment<3 And during Heart Heartbreak Bryan definitely pointed and smiled to Jessica and I because we were rocking out to the guitar solo (Paul did fantastic). I also swear Paul and I had a couple moments but maybe I'm just being crazy hahaha. He looked amazingly beautiful, as always. And John handled those drums. I also got Martin's guitar pic. I saw it come toward me and I put my foot over it the had Jessica grab it because Martin is her all time favorite. So she said it was a birthday present haha. Paul is my all time favorite and I was SO CLOSE to getting one of his guitar pics. But some DB hit it out of my hand and when I picked it up off the ground she stepped on me. And to be honest, it just wasn't worth it haha. If she wanted it that bad then you can have it. I'll just try and get one at their next show. Bryan is also a favorite of mine because I have this weird obsession with bass players. (: My dad came home from Illinois yesterday so I picked him up from the airport. He was gone for way to long. The car ride home was nice (: I missed him a lot.

Well, that is pretty much it. Sorry for the mindless, band crazed blog. Hahaha, I feel like my IQ dropped by just writing all this mindless madness. But it is so true! BLG will always be one of my all time favorite bands. Until next time<3

em[ily]

So today was Labor day.

How was your day?

So much has happened lately. I just haven't had time to update haha. I almost have everything crossed off my Summer To Do list! So that is pretty exciting (: OH! Bailey, Dina, Kim, Alyssa, and myself all went slip and sliding this last week. It was amazing. haha. We took two huge tarps and put them under the sprinklers at Cedargrove Elementary and just handled that haha. We decided to do it every summer when we come back from college! I love those girls.

Hmm, lets see. Where do I start. Friday? Well that was Slip and Slide round two. Dean joined us after the football game. And we had soap this time. Aroma therapy soap and it was just plain out sexy. haha.

Now for Saturday? Bailey and I picked up Kim and we headed out for the Fair since it was only a dollar to get in from 10-1. That day was a disaster haha but in a good way. We left my house at noon thinking that we would make to to the fair before 1. I mean it really is not that far from my house. Well the freeway was completely PACKED because everyone was leaving for the labor day weekend. It was awful. So we get off and take Arrow to get to the gate and what stops us this time? A FREAKING CHECK POINT! WTH?!? Why in the world is there a check point at 12:00 in the afternoon. No better question, who would be drinking and driving already? So of course we don't make it in time for the dollar entrance so we decide to go to San Clemente. Why there? To get us some Rainbow sandals. Because at the warehouse they are much cheaper. But guess what?? There is still so much traffic. But we needed to get there before 4:00 otherwise they would be closed. 4 hours is enough time to get to San Clemente right? Well close. It took us what on a normal day would take 45 minutes 3 and a half hours. But we still got our chanclas so it is all good (: Then we ate at fat burger and I came home. What else? Oh, so I find out Mahana is talking mad shit on me. No wonder people at Charter Oak hate me. It is people like him and all his friends that give me a bad name. Guess what? I'm not in high school anymore so just leave me alone and let me continue my life with out you constantly bring me up. Do you really not have anything else better to talk about than me? Wow that is pathetic. Go do some homework or something. And while you are at it, flog your log ass... But I went to Jacqui's house and her Tyler Jessica and Veronica all made me feel better. So I stayed the night there.

Sunday is next I believe. Well I came home from Jacqui's and slept for a while because I was so tired. Then I got all dolled up and went to my best friend's house. Then we (Her mom, me and Jessica) headed down to Los Angeles to the Pantages Theater. We got to see Legally Blonde for her 19th birthday. Her mom got amazing tickets. We were right in the middle 7 rows back from the front!! The show was absolutely AMAZING! I don't know what it is about going and seeing a show but I always manage to cry because I just get so happy watching those talented people dance and sing on the stage. I was just blown away with how great the show was. I am so grateful to have been invited to see it! Definitely top 5 best shows I have seen. (: Gahhh. Then we went to Applebees for dinner. After that I get a call from Bailey asking me to go with her to visit Cory. So we go to John's house and hang out with those boys for a little while. I miss them so much. Everyone there was just so nice.

And today! Bailey, Kim, and I went to the FAIR!! Hahaha I love the fair and we still made it in for a dollar. We all got really cool Henna Tattoos. I got Casper on my foot because that is my nickname (: Bailey got the Japanese water symbol on her foot and kim got these cute little feet on her foot. Ironic right? Hahaha. They fit us so well. Then we ate at Pink's Hotdogs. Mmmm it was delicious! And we each won stuffed animals. I got a giraffe (Surprise there right?) then Bailey got am elephant, and Kim got a lion. We were super cute today. And some guy even said we were Charlie's Angels. haha. After the fair I came home and napped for entirely to long. Now Jessica is sleeping over because tomorrow after she goes to school we are going to Hollywood to the Jimmy Kimmel Live show to see BOYS LIKE GIRLS! They are one of my favorite bands and I could not be more excited. (:

So I guess you could say I had a good Labor Day Weekend haha. I'll post tomorrow after the show! Love you!

em[ily] <3